[05.09.26]

hello all! i was going to abandon this website after those two irls found my web address but. i don't know. i felt like updating it as of late. i now feel that i should not force myself out of this home for the fear of being seen. none of my business. think i'm gonna add the porn thing i was going to anyway cause, if for no other reason, i essentially slept with those two irls (and one has gone away with leave, so i don't expect him to ever check my site again. if i'm wrong, well. hey d. what happened to not checking my site without telling me?) so its not really anything out of was the ordinary ever was. i probably won't keep my diary here for a while though. i don't really think i need to outside of this little update box, which (with hope) forces me to be somewhat more succinct than i would be otherwise.
i'm coming out of a weird summer -- the weirdest i've yet to know, anyhow -- into a comparatively lonely autumn. while it was a time of major anxiety, namely the revival and maintenance of my binge eating disorder, there were also a few other new and nameless things that i don't utterly regret having experienced. i hope to make more mistakes as they come to me in the future, for i will learn. i think this has been the major lesson of the sunny malaise that has been the summer of 2026.

with hope,
kc x